It is Stephanie here, writing on James' blog. So pretty much she is the most amazing person i know. I don't know if you know it or not, but she has a gift to make people laugh and make people feel loved.

Right now she is reading a story called "Jamie and the Earthworms" to me. It is a story in her children's Bible. She is so funny reading and being goofy. She has such a gift to love children as well. Watching her this first week at camp was beyond amazing. She loves them...with God's love. And by the way, she can sing like one of those heavenly angels praising the Lord...and I believe one day she is gonna be on Broadway, showing Jesus' love to others...after all, Broadway is her name, being amazing is her game...

I love her a lot

and now for the weather..

ha..


and just like that, im over it.




you make me smile so much! thank the good Lord above for you my handsome man :)

astonishing.

i have never been broken up with....i am always the one who initiates it...always....and....the guy always ends up happy and i end up alone, a pititful mess to the end of a "relationship" ... i dont understand it, i dont know why relationships ruin me like they do...i dont know why i fall in love with any guy who pays me the least bit of attention....but every single guy ive dated has always ended up happier....and in a way i've always been bitter about it....just wondering, what happened....and why couldn't I, Jami, the Ex as it were, make it work......but i guess i shouldnt let it bother me. i mean, single-dom is something i've gotten to know very well, and i don't hate it... i just can't get my head around the fact that there is something, someone, somewhere, that has been going through the same thing, and i just want so badly to find that.....

not sure where that rant came from, but i feel better.

kinda.


--ciao, anyway.

THIS MODERN LOVE - bloc party.

To be lost in the forest
To be cut adrift
You've been trying to reach me
You bought me a book
To be lost in the forest
To be cut adrift
I've been paid
I've been paid

Don't get offended
If I seem absent minded
Just keep telling me facts
And keep making me smile
Don't get offended
If I seem absent minded
I get tongue-tied
Baby, you've got to be more discerning
I've known never known what's good for me
I will be yours

I'll pay for you anytime

You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Well jump on, enjoy, you can gorge away
You told me you wanted to eat up my sadness
Jump right on
Baby, you've got to be more discerning
I've known never known what's good for me
Baby, you've got to be more demanding
I will be yours

What are you holding out for?
What's always in the way?
Why so damn absent-minded?
Why so scared of romance?

This modern love breaks me
This modern love wastes me

Do you wanna come over and kill some time?
Tell me facts, tell me facts, tell me facts
Tell me facts
Throw your arms around me

luke and i were talking about this album tonight...i came back and this song was playing on my iTunes. good ol' bloc party, always there to make you feel good...lol, or more alone, whichever! :)

how bout that?

wow...has another year really gone by? man. its so weird. time just continues to move faster and faster the older we get it seems. i just finished with my exams for this semester, and now im getting ready for summer. another amazing summer working out in nature, in God's beautiful canvas...i am so excited for it. it'll be so amazing to not have to study all summer, with the exception of working my butt off (literally, and on my monologue).

this summer, i've decided that i am going to come back completely prepared for auditions. i am going to know this character (Jo March) inside and out, her whole life story. i will know all of her objectives for everything and her super objectives. my audition will be rehearsed in the camp office lobby area (where there is a piano) many, many times....i will walk in there with no regrets or know "what if i had practiced more". i want to give one of those auditions that will make them go, wow. she's got it. i've always just "winged" my auditions. i guess its because in highschool i never got any parts, but now where there are no politics...its just raw talent...i do get parts. and that frankly scares me. i want this part so bad i can taste it. i need to work on my movement and my characterizations. the biggest task is .... finding the Perfect monologue. i've got my song in the bag, no worries there. but the monologue is another thing. i talked to my favorite theatre prof. yesterday about monologues...and so that helped a Lot. now its just working on it, over and over and over again. i'll do that monologue a million times so that i know it backward and forward. i mean i know whatever happens, God has a plan for it...i just, i've never wanted a part so badly...!!!!!

sorry for that long shpeal....but i had to let out some frustrations!!!!!

ps: if you have any tips on a monologue, PLEASE let me know.

love always,

ciao!

its up to you new york, neeeewwww yorrrrkkkk

today has been odd. i've not been in necessarily a "bad" mood, but an "odd" mood. i have often wondered what brings on "bad moods". is it our lack of energy, lack of sleep, lack of motivation, or did someone just piss us off? its a mystery. everyone is entitled to a bad mood now and again, so i guess today was just my turn . . . i've been listening to really good chill music these days and not getting enough sleep, so that could also be a couple contributing factors. i have never been so anxious for a semester to end in my life. this semester has been complete hell (as far as the school work goes). next semester will be so much more chill and full of good grades, i hope for the best! this semester i've been so busy with everything in the theatre, that i've barely had time to pay attention to school work this year. i mean im not failing anything as of mid-term, but its not quite where i'd like it to be, that sorta thing. i just can't wait to be back at Camp, where i can where gym shorts everyday and just be outdoors...i just love that mountain.

in other news..
in my acting 3 (styles) class, we are presenting our shakespeare scenes tomorrow afternoon. my scene partner and i worked on the scene today, and it went quite well actually. we had our professor sit in on our rehearsal and give us some pointers. i was excited that she liked it so much...becasue usually she doesnt like much of what anyone does haha.

the musical forecast...
i am currently listening to some of my favorite music as of now...and i feel like i should share this amazing music :) if you want chill, jazzy, smooth study music/date music try Ray LaMontagne. if you want good rhythmic, low key, granola eating music, try Iron & Wine (a favorite of mine for a while). if you are in a angry love mood, or just feel like being artsy try Damien Rice. and last but not least, if you are feeling like some good ben folds meets iron and wine type music try, Justin & Tomek. oh wait, one more, for some straight chill music try Cary Brothers.


well im going to go "study" some spanish...when actually...im watching eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and having some organic late night snacks. ahhhh this makes my day seem so much better already.

stay classy - till next time,

ciao!

howsa bout them apples.

well i just read my latest post. and by latest i mean the post i put up about ehh 2 months ago? a lot has changed since that post. long story short i am no longer with the guy i previously mentioned, and i am currently sitting in my room next to my billie holiday poster, listening to pedro the lion, & having an organic granola bar and a wonderful smoothie from whole foods called "Naked". now get your little minds out of the gutter *shame on you*, its called "naked" because its completely all natural with 2 pounds of fruit in each bottle.

now that i have completely riveted you with the miniscule details of my life...

this past weekend and the coming weekend i am in a show called Scapin'. things are going really well, we've had standing ovations every night so far so we must be doing something right, eh?

this whole week is going to be so packed. monday night is the stage combat performance and show choir rehearsal, tuesday night is the show choir recital, wednsday night is the theatre banquet, and then every night after that til saturday is the show, and then strike on sunday...after that its nothing but exams. i also have 2 tests and a theatre history paper to write this week...wowzers. i just want to go ahead and thank in advance all the professors who like to just pack everything in, in two weeks. how delicious.

last night we had a really great cast party. we ended up watching a movie called Smoking Aces, it was really really weird...and somewhere between a glass of wine and one of the members of the cast getting sick (haha long story)...we ended up watching a charlie brown christmas and eating (by mistake) 2 year old peanuts. thats just how we party down here in the BC. but seriously, theatre parties don't get any more random.. woot.

anyhow, its laundry time finally...so i must attend to that crap and all its glory.

ciao!

well hey there..

so...its been quite a while since this ol' gal has blogged, i guess you would say. im not sure why, its not that i didnt have anything to say...i think i was just waiting for the perfect moment. im obvioiusly thinking that 2am probably isnt the best choice, but when you have to write...you have to write.

since i've last posted...a lot of things have happened.
-i have a wonderful boyfriend who just makes me smile all the time...he's my best friend, can't ask for more than that can ya?
-i got a pretty decent part in a Moliere' play called "scapin' " ... should be interesting..
-i am camp mundo vista's new assistant worship leader & co-counselor...very exciting.
-i've lost 5 pounds, somehow...without working out...im thinking it must be stress or something of the sort.

im sure there are other things im leaving out...but we'll leave it at that for now.

lately i've been having this overwhelming feeling that i cant describe. i think its pre-graduation anxiety...granted i have 2 more years before i leave this university...but i still can't help but wonder what will happen afterwards. i want so much to be involved with theatre as much as i can, i dont want to be one of these majors that ends up working at Sears or behind the counter of a grocery store...i think i would be the most depressed person alive if that were me. i've been talking with one of our newest professors a lot lately about things to do after school...when he first came to CU i couldn't stand the man, i thought he was arrogant and just rude...but after talking to him and working with him, he has taught me so much in such a short amount of time. this man is soo educated and so good with getting his point across, plus he's hillarious so that always makes for a fun conversation. and, the best part is, i can be completely honest with him...he's not one of those professors that i'm like afraid to say "hey, i dont want to do that"..you know? its hard to explain..but yeah. i've got this anxious feeling like i have all this stuff i want to do...but it all coincides with something else, or is just a very inconvenient time...i want to do "this" show but its during a rough semester...i want to do 2 shows, but "this" show is during "this" shows rehearsals...i mean just thinking about it makes me feel stressed...

just keep me in your prayers and thoughts...i've got a lot on my mind lately...and once again i have way to much on my plate with no clue how to accomplish it all.

until we meet again,
ciao mi bellas

-jami leigh.