ch-ch-changes

My friends from high school
Married their high school boyfriends
Moved into houses in the same ZIP codes
Where their parents live

But I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow

I hit the highway in a pink RV with stars on the ceiling
Lived like a gypsy
Six strong hands on the steering wheel

I've been a long time gone now
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
But I've always found my way somehow

By taking the long way
Taking the long way around
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around

I met the queen of whatever
Drank with the Irish and smoked with the hippies
Moved with the shakers
Wouldn't kiss all the asses that they told me to

No I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow

It's been two long years now
Since the top of the world came crashing down
And I'm getting' it back on the road now

But I'm taking the long way
Taking the long way around
I'm taking the long way
Taking the long way around
The long
The long way around

Well, I fought with a stranger and I met myself
I opened my mouth and I heard myself
It can get pretty lonely when you show yourself
Guess I could have made it easier on myself

But I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow

Well, I never seem to do it like anybody else
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
If you ever want to find me I can still be found

Taking the long way
Taking the long way around
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around




happy new year. time to start fresh.

thanksgiving!

its SOOOOOOOOOOO great to be...

HOME! :)


HAVE A GREAT THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!
eat lots o' TURKEY!

rain. . . ... another attempt at this "writing" thing....

its raining outside
and she doesnt want to go
she sits at the window
as the rain trickles down the glass,
watching the drops as they fall
fall, fall, fall..

she knows she should try
to step out of this barricade of lies
but theres so many things,
holding her back,
excuses,
keeping her from stepping out

who wants to run in the rain
who wants mascara running down their face
she already has that and she doesnt know why
her heart is crying out
she cant help but cry...
for redemption

she knows His name
He knows her love
even though she doesnt show it enough
she is accepted and it scares her to death
how could someone love her, in all of this mess

-jami leigh-

i just sortof started writing...and this is what came out

God doesnt expect us to be untarnished
the more we try to be this ideal supreme saint
the more we wander away from the real truth
trying to have the perfect this, the perfect that
its not worth it
his love for us is real
no matter our condition
no matter our sin
isnt it amazing..
sometimes i sit in bed and think
about his love and i cant hardly grasp it
the way i love my Lord is this
letting my praises leave my lips
all the way to my finger tips i love him with all i am
he loves us even when we dont love him
and when we try to be the things we're not
is he looking down on us thinking, poor child of mine
why do you strive so much to be this person
that isnt true that isnt real that isnt pure
why do we delay in this quest of whole heartedness
like if we let others in we aren't defending ourselves
what is there to defend against
the likelyhood of something hurting us is evident
the fact that we parade around under this shroud of
holier than thou attitudes, proclaiming we are followers
of the one true perfect and mighty God
king of kings, lamb of God, the good Shephard
if we would just allow him to guide us
would we be so quick to judge, of course not
we aren't to judge others, there is only one true judge of us all
and he sits at the right hand of our Holy Father
so in our virtuous quest to be pefection
i fear we have illuded to other non-belivers a different truth
that to love God one must be perfect, no don't let it occur
let us let love rule in our lives
let our love to others shine
predominantly
through out this rollercoaster,
life.

-jami

random..

my sister is gorgeous.

(these are pics i took this weekend, im a pretty good photographer, haha)













































this week has been good...lots of rain...pretty much uneventful...one test this week...we had a choir concert tonight, and my feet hate me right now from standing so long...a boy is taking me to see a movie this weekend, bout time! :)

hope your week is brighter and more eventful than mine!! haha

just amazing.

today i took a drive to my sisters. i was amazed at the colors of the leaves. the trees are turning from green to browns and yellows and reds, beautiful...God is quite the artist.

sometimes its just crazy to think about. the same God that makes the trees, and the sky, and this beautiful earth we live on...loves each and everyone of us. sometimes in our hectic schedules and busy lives we seem to take it all for granted. as i was driving today i almost started crying. thinking about how much i've changed over the past year and how God has really put some special people in my life. i'll admit, i still have some growing to do...but at least now i'm growing more in Him.

even in this huge world...God still loves little ol' me...and well, thats just awesome.

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i found this online...i think you'll like it....




...and the heavens rained golden leaves upon the earth
------------------------------------------------------------------------
Have you ever walked slowly through autumn woods, allowing your spirit to absorb the soothing rustle of falling leaves? If you listen closely, you can hear them brushing against every leaf on the tree as they swirl past them on their journey to the earth below, almost as though they are exchanging final high-fives in passing. High-fives for the storms of spring they've endured together. High-fives for the summer shelter they've provided. And high-fives in celebration of the beauty of life they've been privileged to share and, in turn, been privileged to give in the golden hues of autumn color. And now, on God's silent cue, they've released themselves to a final journey where they will settle together upon the ground and converge in an earthy fragrance of life releasing itself back into the earth. Life releasing itself to provide strength for new life--the circle begun again as each new generation passes into it's own spring. Life reborn, a whispered promise by God in the soft, rustling sound of leaves falling upon the ground.

Father, the circle of life dances around us as the awe of autumn's beauty unfolds before our eyes. We are reminded that the beauty of our life lies not in the birth, but in the storms we've endured, the shelter we have provided; and the glorious color we at last bring forth in the years before our life is complete. Let us be blessed in knowing, however, that the greatest beauty of our life is the promise you whisper in our ear as our days begin to fade; the promise of the strength we leave behind for each new generation to begin anew.
(c) Shirley Jones - published in Prayers from St. Philips

here and gone...

Its almost november...wow....that means im THAT much closer to my birthday, oh yes. :)

Well this weekend has been a little bit sad, for me at least. Don't get me wrong, it was a good weekend. I've just been down. The play ended Saturday night. It didnt start out so well. First off, I have never messed up a dance move since the beginning of the run of the show. So of course, the night that my parents are there I mess up on a dance move. I'm sure no one noticed, but it still bugs me. Ending this show made me a lot more sad than I thought it would. This was my first lead role in a musical, so needless to say I was more than a little attatched to it. Polly was nothing like me but in a lot of ways she was. She wanted a boy friend, I mean who doesn't, right? haha...I will miss playing her night after night...that is for certain. When the curtain closed on for the last time, I couldn't help but feel like someone had just ripped my heart out. There were so many people that were ecstatic about it being over, and it just really hurt my feelings. I just wish people would take into consideration other peoples feelings sometimes. I mean, I know some people just think theatre majors are the biggest slackers on earth, which there are a lot of slackers in the theatre world...but for those of us who really develop our character and do extra rehearsals...i mean, when I got this role I thought they had made a mistake. But because of Polly I have learned that I really can get any part I want. Before this show I couldnt sing soprano notes with confidence, I certainly couldn't dance, and I wasn't sure of myself. Now I know I can do all of these things. Each night before the show I would find a place where no one else was, and I would just pray for the success and enjoyment of the show...and everytime I prayed I could just feel the Lord give me this release and my tension would go away. So...not to bore you guys...but I really do miss the show. In non-theatre terms, just imagine someone giving you your favorite thing in the world and letting you keep it for a short while...and taking it away again. Thats how it feels...but there are other auditions and more musicals to audition for...so things will get better.

I was going to audition for NCTC which is a Theatre Conference. If you make it through those auditions you go on to audition for SETC which is even bigger. It gives you oppurtunities to find summer work with other theatres instate or out of state. It would be a great oppurtunity. I had almost all the paperwork filled out...but I hadnt prayed about it. I've prayed about it a lot this past week...and that just isn't where the Lord is leading me right now...He has something else planned for me, and for some reason I am getting pretty scared that it might be mundo vista again...we shall see.

I hope you all are having a fantastic week. Also a little side note, I am taking suggestions for birthday gifts, if you have something you want to give me for the celebration for the day of my birth, I am more than happy to tell you whether or not it is acceptable :) mmmkay? haha..!

ps: i just got a 4.000 dollar scholarship, woop woop for free money's! :) ha

hey heres a video of the show! i got like about 5 sets of 30 second clips from a friend backstage and spliced them together!! enjoy :)



be forwarned...i cannot dance...i don't really like this clip and i got it mainly to see what i need to work on...3 of them being : my weight, my dancing, and how i carry myself on stage...this video was an eye opener :-/

AHHH!!!

its opening night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


-pics to come soon!!


AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D

just a lil postage...

fall break was nice...what there was of it. i got to go home for a couple days *pictures on flickr*

went to elon with the choir, gorgeous campus up there.

i slept in for the first time in a looonngg time today, it was amazing. we had tech rehearsal tonight, pretty much all night. it went pretty well, my costumes are retarded but its ok.

got some new music this weekend...im a little obsessed with it right now, some old, some new stuff...Amos Lee, Beck, Bright Eyes, Cary Brothers, Coldplay, Colin Hay, Damien Rice, Elliot Smith, Everclear, Fiona Apple, Imogen Heap, Iron & Wine, Jack Johnson, Joshua Radin, Keane, Nick Drake, Postal Service, Ray LaMontagne, The Shins, Sufjan Stevens, Snow Patrol, Athlete, Rufus Wainright, Remy Zero, Schuyler Frisk

also a little obsessed with"The last kiss" soundtrack....sooo good.

anyway have a great week everyone...i'm definitely gonna be busy this week..dress rehearsal every single night!

OPENING NIGHT is this FRIDAY!!! AHHHH!! Keep me in your prayers guys!

adios. & peaceout.

fall break...sortof

so i got home last night around 11pm-ish .. after rehearsal was over. i hung out with my mom for a bit..i missed that crazy woman!! :) this morning i went to town with my mom, my aunt laura, and baby cousin madison...we went to the j-ville mall and of course no shopping trip is complete with out a stop at target...i got a very cute dress from the mall today, along with the perfect shoes..a few movies i wanted...and some moccasins, random but whatever...!! haha

so i have to head back tomorrow already :( i really miss just being at home and not having to worry about a thing. no homework, no stress, and plenty of hugs! i miss those especially...you never really get hugs at school, but even if i just walk into the living room i feel like i just have to hug my mom and daddy...i just really missed them more than i realized. this summer taught me a lot about myself, but i really realized this summer how much i love and depend on my parents.

anyways...! tomorrow i plan on sleeping in and then having lunch with my mom, my dad, my aunt, baby madison, and my grandma howard...after that...its time to load up the car and head back to the creek...well i have to make a pit stop @ moka joes, but then its back to the creek haha..

we have a choir thing on saturday morning...and then sunday will be spent in costume under really hot stage lights preparing for our full run and tech rehearsal....THE ORCHESTRA IS COMING ON MONDAY!! oh man i can't wait for that...i get chills just thinking about it, just the sound...it just makes everything so much fuller and alive, than just a few voices and a piano.!! its definitely my favorite thing about being in a musical...i am starting to get nervous, which is strange because i've grown up on the stage, i don't get stage fright...ever...i think i am nervous mostly about this being my first leading role...i want everything to be perfect...i am just so excited/anxious/wannavomit/happy/nervous all at the same time!! its very...odd, to say the least. everything is going to be perect though, and i just need to trust in God, that everything will work out!

i can't wait...!!!!

i could be happy with you...if you could be happy with...me!

me and the boys





















a few pics, singin with the gals!
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see i am slowly getting my dances down! ... everything is really coming together...and last night we decided to surprise our director and do or onstage kiss, completely unrehearsed...it was SO hard to keep a straight face hahahaha...good times

hope you all are having a fantastic week!! mwah! :)

Come on down!!

its almost time for our first official run-thru of the show!!! i can't wait. last night we had all our dance moves perfect, and we added in some blocking and the director just loved it. im just sooo pooped from all these rehearsals. we have choir sectionals in like an hour, so i am thinking that a nap sounds good right about now. its a funny thing about naps..when i was a kid i remember crying everytime my grandma (God rest her soul) would make me chicken noodle soup and put on the "Price is Right", because i knew after i finished my soup and Bob announced the winner, it was time for the dreaded nap. Now i would love nothing more than for that to be the only upsetting thing in my day, haha. I would give anything to have someone make me chicken noodle soup and watch price is right with and fall asleep. :) Gracious...ain't it funny how much we change.

it's a beautiful life...woah oh oh oh :)

so lately i have been a lot less stressed. my dances are really coming along. and some people in this world really know how to make me feel better about myself :) im very excited about the fact that before this musical i couldnt even do a jazz square without falling over, but not i can do not only a jazz square, but i can also do pivot turns and shasee steps and even a mean
pahdahbooray (that is not even how you spell it, but i have no clue how its spelled haha!) if anyone does, please let me know!

Yesterdays rehearsal were a bit frustrating because some people just arent very focused or positive about what we are trying to do. i hate when people are negative nancy's about everything, try and be a positive PAM! the lack of energy is really obvious, and it really brings down the show as a whole. i am really hoping and praying that people get their acts together and stop putting this show on the back burner and realize that when they accepted their part, they accepted to put this show as their number one thing to be involved with...the complaining needs to stop.

in other news...my high notes, oddly enough, are really starting to get easier...which is real good news, because I am an alto, i've always been an alto, i was born an alto..in choir im a 2nd alto...but now, i can basically hit notes of a 1st soprano. not really sure how that happened, but i am not complaining!! i've been drinking tea and honey like its my job. and i've also started getting much more comfortable with belting out a Bflat above the staff, and learning how to support it...its kindof fun to sing that high, makes me feel powerful!...but i do miss belting out some stuff ;)

I haven't quite decided what I am going to do for fall break. well first off it isnt really even a break for me. we have to come back early for choir, and then the day after that I have a very very looonnnggg tech rehearsal for the musical. i can't believe its almost here!!! :) i am quite excited about it!

well...thats about all i've got for this post. things are going well! i hope you have a wonderful tuesday!!



here are a few pics!

me in my new sweater!


my sissy's little baby boy :)


me and sarrrrah


im sucha hottie! :) haha what can i say?


she is abusive, freako!

He has set me free...

Turnin' molehills into mountains,
Makin' big deals out of small ones,
Bearing gifts as if they're burdens,
This is how it's been.
Fear of coming out of my shell,
Too many things I can't do too well,
afraid I'll try real hard, and I'll fail--
This is how it's been.
Till the day You pounded on my heart's door,
And You shouted joyfully,
"You're not a slave anymore!"
.....
You're free to dance-Forget about your two left feet
....

And you're free to sing-even joyful noise is music to Me....

You're free to love,'Cause I've given you My love,
and it's made you free
I have set you free!


My mind finds hard to believe
That You became humanity and changed the course of history,
Because You loved me so.
And my heart cannot understand
Why You'd accept me as I am,
But You say You've always had a plan,
And that's all I need to know.
So when I am consumed by what the world will say,
it's Then You're singing to me, as You remove my chains-



Free from worry, free from envy and denial
Free to live, free to give, free to smile



thank you Lord. :)

too much

lately i've been feeling a bit overwhelmed. unlike some people its not really classes that are overwhelming me, since i am a theatre major, that rarely happens. its the musical and people in general that are doing it to me...i've really been trying not to let things get to me, or bother me at all...but, it hasn't really been working. the musical is coming along...i just keep getting really tense with all the dancing and the high notes and the people in it. one thing i cannot stand is when people try and do someone elses job, that has bugged me since i was a little kid. i think sometimes because im so nice i just let people push me around, even when im older than they are...also something that has bugged me since i was younger. i think because i am the youngest, i've always had this inner-instinct to try and act older than i am, but i think it just comes off as immature to some people, which is not what i want. but anyway, thats a completely different story. the other things that has been on my mind lately is feeling like a bad friend. i personally don't think i am, but its hard to feel like a good friend when there are so many people around constantly telling me the opposite. getting mad at me for not hanging out with them all the time, and just really minute things like that. i hate when people take one little thing and turn it into something else...i mean, i am doing my best. i've got a lot on my plate right now, i just wish people would understand it. another thing i've decided is that, there are no guys at campbell that remotely interest me, or are interested in me...i mean there are a couple, but i, in no way, reciprocate the emotion. which has always been the case with me, when a guy is really into me, about 90% of the time, im not into him... when i look around at other people on campus, and there are definitely a few strange ones and they have a significant other...i mean i think im pretty attractive, and normal...so, what is the problem. it bugs me because, when i was sortof back-sliding, i had tons of guys that were interested in me...but now that im growing closer to God, there isn't one in sight...what is He trying to teach me? i hope its not patience, because with all the weirdos i have dated in my lifetime i am pretty sure that i've learned patience and how to be strong willed. so what is it? i pray about it nightly, for the Lord to send me someone...i know it'll happen in His time...and like i've said before...it will seem "last minute" to me, but God doesn't have a "last minute" he's known all along and whatever happens is His will...and i have to start trusting that more instead of thinking too much. i think too much.

totally great.

so...this week has been very tiring, and its only tuesday. whenever i'm feeling like this, i find that musicals, hot tea, and good quotes to warm the heart, are good pick-me-ups. i am currently drinking some oh-so-fabulouso organic green tea with bits of mandarin orange in the tea bag, its ammmazing. I've been thinking a lot lately, especially while i've been working out like its my job. i've found that when i'm running on that elliptical about to keel over and pass out, that my mind is the most open to wandering and thinking about the most random things...in a good way though. so many times we all get so caught up in what we are doing, like a routine, that its hard to just stop. and feel. now, i am not one to be overly emotional, but as i am getting older and maturing, that things that used to be so minute in my thoughts, has now become a huge part of what i care about and what i think about....all of this is good though, its really good. i used to think that people that thought all the time, and pondered everything under the sun, were just crazy hippies. well i've turned out to be quite the hippie thinker then, if that is the case. everyone's starting to notice...i used to hide my emotions so much, to the point that it would really cause me to breakdown on the inside...a lot of it had to do with my self-esteem problems that i've been dealing with since i was about 12 years old...middle school really ruined me..i'm pretty sure that i want my kids homeschooled or something during those years, it was dreadful...but i am definitely becoming more aware of my emotions, how i am feeling about things, how others feel...i think its a bit of my maternal instinct coming out that i developed over the summer...my closest friends are one of my most prized possessions, i keep them so close to my heart now...i used to take the whole "best friend" thing for granted..for soo many years. now, its like they are apart of me, apart of my everyday life...without them, all these discovering, and emotional growing of my spirit and my heart would be a lot more lonely :)

whew...that was definitely a different kind of post haha...
well tonight i didn't get to work out, poot. but..we do have a whole hour of dancing tonite and we had it last night too...its real tough haha but i know i'll get it, eventually...i hope everything with you all is going fantastically!!! :) much love. always, me.

beautiful weekend...

this weekend was really nice. i hung out with my friend Carl. we went to downtown wilmington, and it was AWESOME.!!!. they have the best shops down there, my favorite is one called "Edge of Urge" i got a really sweet t-shirt...its hillarious click HERE to see it :)

then...we went to go see my baby Jad :) he lives in wilmington too, he goes to UNCW it was great to see him!

we came back saturday night-ish...then Sunday morning, Carl & I went to church. I really like that church, its very chill :) we got some lunch at the cafeteria with a few friends afterward...i worked out like a crazy woman sunday too...definately going back today, woo hoo!!

last night i hung out with my little sarah friend :) haha...i missed her this weekend...so we ate hummus and chatted about our weekends...got breakfast this morning...she said she could tell i was losing some weight, so that was exciting, cause i don't feel like i have but hey! :) haha maybe i am...hmmmm haha

alright...so i often get addicted to the dumbest music....and this time its a musical, called
Ragtime: The Musical ... it is ammmmazing tho!
*click that link!!*

okay...well im off to science lab :-X grrrrr ...then i get to work out, YAY! woot woot.
have a lovely day, mwah!
much looove.

rehearsals!!! :) ... and a few baby pictures

so rehearsal is getting into FULL swing...and...i am LOVING it.

a couple pics of joanna & I rehearsing (madame dubbonett & polly browne) :)

Jo, Dr. Morrow at the piano, & Charles (madame dubbonett & percival browne, me fathah)

One of the stage managers...haha good gracious

Joanna & I...obviously hard at work :)

oh and to make this a bit more random....here are some baby pics of me, when i was a little manateenee :)

now i am off to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep :) night night all

fun reekend!! :)

sit on the rurtle...? :)

this past reekend (weekend) was a really fun time...I went home with sarah this weekend to surprise her daddy for his birthday. we got there friday night and rang the doorbell and hid next to the door, his face was priceless haha...he was quite surprised, even if momma fergy did let a few things slip earlier that day like, "i've got to get the pillows ready for the girls" haha...precious :)

Sarah's aunt, & Chris and Lauren the happy couple :)

me and momma fergy

I got to hang out with the whole Ferg family :) they are great, love them. I met a lot of people this weekend from friends at her dads birthday party, and her aunt and uncle from alabama, to people at her church. I got to see Chase this weekend too, he's a sweetie :) he gave me a tshirt and sarah was real jealous haha, just kidding (rust ridding) :)

sarah didn't make those, just incase anyone was wondering :)

it's not frosting, it's art... :)

me and lauren...this is a real good pic, if i do say so myself! :) pretty ladies!!

Sarah's sister Lauren is great, we get along really well and we make really good funny cooky weird faces...and then take pictures of them haha...I'm really just friends with sarah so i can hang out with her awesome family, :) jk, but they are great...Her sister Maryn is cool too, and she has an ammmmmmmazing voice. She sang "Battle Hymn of the Republic" at church the other day....i was in shock, Sarah had to pick my jaw up off the floor and basically reattach it.

me and momma fergy! :)

I of course love sarahs parents too, they are hillarious...her mom calls me her little manateenee

:) ohhh yea... and I guess sarah is okay too :)

the ride home...ahhh goodtimes :)

i was trying to dance like sarrrrah...it just turned into another jami face tho :)

On a different note....Sarahs grandmother passed away yesterday morning...
You are all in my thoughts and prayers. She is in a better place and she is at peace. I love you all. :)

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

i definately got THE LEAD IN THE MUSICAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :)

how excited am i???? .... well lets see, on a scale of 1-10...im at about a 25!!!!!

i am Polly Browne in "The Boy Friend" .... i am sooooooo blessed beyond words, I can't wait to see what oppurtunities God is going to give me next!! He is so amazing!!! ... I've decided that I'm not going to change my major after all...and that I am going to try out for either Straw Hat - theatre company for the summer...or NCTC - north carolina theatre company....my profesors were very impressed with my voice and acting...and they have NO doubt that I can make it :) :)

When God closes a door he definately opens about 10 windows :) :)

thats all for now!!! i'm ouuuut.

much love!!!!
-jami-
aka - polly browne ;)

if i do not love, i am nothing.

1 corinthians 13
...read it...

last nite something really awesome happened...one of my girls was crying...so i took her out of worship...and she said "well im a little bit homesick but its something else too"...and she said that she didnt know what being a believer or being saved meant....and we talked about it, and we are gonna talk about it again tonite...she says she wants to be saved...so we are going to pray about it...and make sure thats what she is supposed to do...shes 10...i was crying so much last night, it was amazing to see God moving in someone so young....i get goosebumps just thinking about it...i talked to her last night about it, about what being a christian means, and what Jesus did for us...and how awesome being a Christian really is but that it isnt always easy...and its really not...so my good friend Allison, also the asst. camp director and I talked to her a bit more....it was just one of the most moving things i've ever experienced....

this morning....Allison comes into my room and says "Jami your sister is in Labor!" and i shot up out of my bunk and said "SHUT UP! SERIOUSLY?!?!" i took my girls to breakfast and hurried up to the birthing center...yes my sister being amazing and liberal like she is, had her baby completely natural..little Ronin Alexander was born @ 7:30 AM-ish this...7.5 pounds, 20 inches long...most beautiful baby boy/nephew, this aunt could ask for...YAY im an AUNT!!!...so anyhow im at her house now...my mom, aunt laura, and baby cousin madison just left....its been a great day...

ya know...i asked the Lord at the beginning of this week to provide me with patience and a blessing...and he's given me all of that and more....His love, and how He provides is like no other...amazing love

quite.

well...3 more weeks left of camp now. i can't wait. just a little FYI:
i love my job...i love what i do up there...i love how God is moving and changing my life and the lives of those children
what i dont' love is hypocrits...there are so many people working there....that remind me of people from church when i was growing up....they were the reason i stopped going to church, they were the reason i constantly felt like there was a popularity contest to win in sunday school...i can't stand it when i see people preaching and saying this and that, and then doing the exact opposite...people being there and helping...but not there for the right reasons...the people that are there for the inner glory and praise of others...not there to glorify God and to teach others about Him....not to Praise Him and do things in his name....people that backstab....people that start drama....i mean i seriously feel like im on crazy pills there...honestly...its so annoying....i am ready to get back to reality...aka CAMPBELL!!! where people actually make me laugh....im excited about this coming weekend too Amanda is coming home with me, woot woot! we are getting away from the mountain for a while!!! ... im at my sisters house right now...she is sooo pregnant haha...she could pop just about any day....

we had a grand day today...my mom, my aunt, my baby cousin, my sister, and myself went around town all day. we went out to eat, hung out at the hotel, went to this amazing authentic greek resturaunt for Crepes...mmmmmmamzing!...

and im def. not losing weight at camp like i thought i would...i think i've firmed up....but...thats about it, i've gained muscle....grrrr....oh well....haha

i got some grrrreat shirts this weekend, some Life Is Good t-shirts.....im hoping to get some mail this next few weeks...i havent gotten much at all since i've been there :( but...oh welll lol ... im just not loved i suppose...haha....

ok for now im going to peaceout....mwah latahs

ahhhhhh camp

so this week was pretty much the best week ever...my girls were just amazing, i hated to see them go i must say. they were so beautiful and caring. they just loved me too. i sang to them each night, i played in most of the worship services this week, and i did most of the bible studies and devotionals. i had so much fun, and as each day passes i am getting closer and closer to the Lord. things are really flowing now...and i love it!...and school starts in like 30 days!!! yay! i am having soooo much fun at camp, i am learning so much from these kids. i know we are supposed to be teaching them, but its like we learn more from them than i think they learn from us sometimes :) its just awesome.!!!....i've posted some lovely little pics, including this week too, on Flickr. check them babies ouuuttt.

love love,
meeeeeeee.

hullooo

soooo only like 4 more weeks til its back to campbell!! :) yay!! i cannot wait either...

camp is going well, and im enjoying every minute of it...for the most part...this past week was full of...me worrying about things and being unsure...but you know what? ... you just have to give it all to God...he's the only one that can really make you feel better and sure of yourself at a time like that.

i've uploaded just about every picture i own onto yahoo photos so be sure to check that out :)

sooooo not really in the blogging mood at the moment haha...silly me
so im going to go to panera bread and grab an organic breakfast with my sister...hope all is well with you guys :) mwah!
laterdays :)

stufffffffffffff....!!!

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there are some random pics....wooooot!

camp mundo vista is great fun!!

i made a balloon animal...

at the outdoor chapel with amanda & kay


the girls from my drama 1 class...im in there somewhere

me and robyn

me & kay

one of my favorite girls from Drama, she was awesome...we did improv one day and she got up there and was rambling on like she'd been acting for years, watch out Dakota Fanning! :-)

our theme:
the girls from my cabin...


my favorite camper, Kelsea!

robyn & grace @ worship

walkie talkie it up!

this amazing missionary Rachelle from Thailand

i could be from Thailand...

kelly & myself :)

some of my fellow counselors at the closing celebration

kelly, me, and abbie...is it friday yet??

all my girls at our last breakfast!

abbie, tammy tate our director, and me!! i love them :)

just read abbie's shirt

rachele let her girls pick out her outfit that morning....mwhaha

way awesome missionary from China...shes been there since the 70's

drama 1 gals


me & abbbbbie-dabbbbie-dooo
me, courtney, and kelly

this precious little girl named Fallon



robyn & me

me, kay, & amanda



the cabin: