i just sortof started writing...and this is what came out

God doesnt expect us to be untarnished
the more we try to be this ideal supreme saint
the more we wander away from the real truth
trying to have the perfect this, the perfect that
its not worth it
his love for us is real
no matter our condition
no matter our sin
isnt it amazing..
sometimes i sit in bed and think
about his love and i cant hardly grasp it
the way i love my Lord is this
letting my praises leave my lips
all the way to my finger tips i love him with all i am
he loves us even when we dont love him
and when we try to be the things we're not
is he looking down on us thinking, poor child of mine
why do you strive so much to be this person
that isnt true that isnt real that isnt pure
why do we delay in this quest of whole heartedness
like if we let others in we aren't defending ourselves
what is there to defend against
the likelyhood of something hurting us is evident
the fact that we parade around under this shroud of
holier than thou attitudes, proclaiming we are followers
of the one true perfect and mighty God
king of kings, lamb of God, the good Shephard
if we would just allow him to guide us
would we be so quick to judge, of course not
we aren't to judge others, there is only one true judge of us all
and he sits at the right hand of our Holy Father
so in our virtuous quest to be pefection
i fear we have illuded to other non-belivers a different truth
that to love God one must be perfect, no don't let it occur
let us let love rule in our lives
let our love to others shine
predominantly
through out this rollercoaster,
life.

-jami